I don’t have a doubt
that love was a lie
Issued from not only your mouth
But shot me with lasers from your eyes
Years of deception
Sentiments untrue
What existed in my head
Wasnt even you
The pain of this realization
Was accompanied by confusion
That what I considered love
Was nothing but an illusion.
I never had you at all
what I had was a delusion.
I swear though I seen love in your eyes
It must of been a reflection of all the lies .
Your love had a price
Mine was free
You were grossly compensated
But never compensated me.
Disappeared without a trace
Just the vague outline of a plan
laughing n hiding in my face
So dark n twisted I’m still struggling to understand .
Offstage silently pulling strings
the weaver of these needful things
those who conspire with the one he hired
willing to end my life for financial means.
causing me to flail wildly
against the fabrication of constant circumstance
being so thoroughly blinded
by expert deception and false romance
while being constantly reminded
that any day is one I could be locked away
I couldn’t even fathom this let alone fight it
But now here I am despite the misuse, the thievery, the fuckery, the abuse .
It’s funny now u threw me away, I have no current use
I came to annihilate and I’m not going to lose
You’ll forever more be afraid of what you think is refuse!
Chaos of Captivity 