I find myself currently living in Tucson, Az with Darwin , my Chihuahua/Datsun mix and Jonedwin, my 79 year old veteran roommate. Lately, he’s been needing more and more help since succumbing to Covid last year. Though he recovered fully he just need my help with so much more. So I run out household; or attempt to. Sometimes I think I only think I run it and it runs me … and all I really run is my mouth.
A series of bizarre and crippling circumstances has literally taken all of my power away from me . It has been like that.. only I just now realized it. The biggest lies we tell are the ones we tell ourself.
I didn’t always have a miserable life but recently it’s been like having a sunburn , no ice water and being stuck in hell with flannel pajamas on
Chaos of Captivity 